i realised how sometimes i pen stuff in this blog to jinx myself.

i wrote this on May 19: no more tears. =)

and 2 days later on May 21, what happened? No decided to go on strike, leaving More Tears to fend for themselves. and it's ALL PAUL ANG SHENG'S FAULT.

dinnertime on May 20:
me: i still don't feel like you are leaving.
paul: yeah. me too.

May 21, 4.37 am (i remembered cos i was pointing at the airport clock and thinking "4+3=7" yeah i'm nuts. so sue me.):
paul: i still don't feel like i'm leaving.
me: yeah.

May 21, 6-ish am
i embarked on my most surreal train ride ever. changi airport to boon lay.

alright, now to be relevent, it's paul's fault cos if only he didnt' have to leave. then i wouldn't have cried. hmph. but then again, i didn't expect myself to cry. so oh well. thing is, close friends usually drift apart so when they finally realised that they are distanced, they are no longer emotionally attached to each other. but now this stupid paul has to be one of those people who are very close to me and it's like suddenly poof! and he's gone. i never had this happen to me before.

so yeah. i attended a life lesson.

his departure also gave me a timely reminder. looking back, i realised i had taken him for granted. it was like, come what may, he'll always be there. i realised how on those late nights, he always call while i didn't. not cos i didn't want to, but cos i knew he will call. see, that's how much i took him for granted. and i started thinking about my other friends, asking myself if i had taken them for granted.

so yeah. i attended another life lesson.

okays.



May 23:
i travelled from one end of the world to the other again. 2nd time in 3 days. boon lay to pasir ris.

this time for another close friend, rachel ho! congrats, you are now baptized! thank God she's not leaving SG too or i'll really cry! anyway i believed everybody who was there had a great time. and yes, uncle bernard was wearing this adidas tennis top (but in yellow! not white. hahas) that i got paul for his super belated birthday gift so that kinda reminded me of him.

somehow, i come to know of TWO pieces of news that i'm now supposed to pretend not to know. and all in the span of ONE day.

gosh.