i wonder why i keep putting off applying for university vacancies. true, i'm done with the nus application. but that's only due to the fact that i'm not qualified enough to be allowed to demonstrate my literary powess there. note. not Qualified. and that's with a capital Q. heck. oh well, chances are my grades will not get me through the almighty gates of kent ridge. anyway, if i read at nus, the major will be philosophy. yes. not pratical. not marketable. not _____. fill in the blank. you get the point. political science? european studies? yadayada? oh whatever.
so yes, nus application over and done with, but with null confidence of being offered a place.

by a slight contrast, ntu is another story. it is possible for me to 'crap' my way through to a place. given my circumstance, i just love the literary loophole there. under the discretionary criteria. but look, chances are everybody who doesn't have an A on their certificate will do the same. oh whatever. ntu. will communications studies offer me a place? nan tah zhong wen xi. is it for me? right now, i seriously doubt my linguistics. confidence is low.

smu. political science. so little info.

goodness gracious. atrocious grades. yet, i don't even seem to want to try to fight for a vacancy.
self, what nonsense.
i need motivation. now.

the circumstances are reduced. for those of us who still have circumstances.