haiz... lotsa things tt i wld like to put down in words... but really dun have e energy... or mayb cos i dun wanna see reality? yups.. putting everything(or as much as possible) down in words will jus make things so much clearer... tt's why you see.. too clear... i wld rather be deluded... yesh... jus accept everything as it comes... i guess one consolation is that friends come and go in life, and whether they stick or not, i wld leave it to e test of time... i tried my best to treat u e way i used to... but i really cant take e cold shoulder anymore.. im sorry if i did not try hard enough..if there is a need to blame anyone, blame me... but i jus feel that i sld move on.. i really really need to and want to study... it doesnt help tt this issue is always there to distract me n more imptly, affect me so deeply... call me selfish. im sorry.