okie... gosh... i'm so gonna pick up e intricacies of HTML... y? cos i want a nice, cool blog with all e works!!! hahah... but i'll only get down to doing it after e 'A' Levels.. hee... in e mean time, guess i jus gotta live with my UgLy blog... twahah... life's llike that... (gosh.. y does that phrase keeps appearing in my blog?!?) hmm.. find joy in simplicity ya.. =)

well.. here's a quotation which i really like.. ever since i first encountered it in sec 2... think it's a good time to remind myself ya... hahah...
'Lord, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can,
and the wisdom to know the difference.'

not quite sure if that's e exact words, but its along that line ya...
there are definitely times when i question why certain things have to happen in a certain way at a certain time and why does it have to involve certain people... i will venture into this indulgent land of Whys?
why the cold shoulder? why are things not like before?
why the politics? why are some ppl just so plain power-hungry?
why do we always put on masks in front of others?
why the false pretense?
why can't we be true, in all sense of the word? true?
and the list goes on... i can go on with my why? why? and even more whys? and i would have missed the point... the point being, seriously, what use is there in questioning things like this?
i would never get the answer.. cos it takes two hands to clap.. i can speak for myself but i can't speak for others. most, if not all people, have their own personal agenda... but everyone's agendas are different... thus, i guess maybe this difference is the reason for the marked contrasts in people's actions...(?)

sometimes, others may not treat you the way you would like to be treated, but it doesn't give you an excuse to treat them any worse... in fact, it should be reason enough to treat them even better...
rise above the situation and you'll walk out of it a better, stronger and wiser person... do not try to provoke them any further (did u in e first place?!) and if the situation does not take care of itself, then i would say that it speaks volumes of their characters..
still, there's absolutely no need for despair, cos u would hv walked away with a deeper insight of inter-personal relationships.. the good, the bad, the ugly and the downright dirty..

whatever it is, it doesn't really matter if one does not live up to others' expectations ALL the time... nor should it matter that what one does is not totally accepted by everybody else...
cos i have come to truly understand that i can't please every single joker in this world... even then, so what if i really pleases the world if at the end of the day, i do not live up to my own conscience? so what if i can answer to the rest of the universe? can i truly face the world when i can't even answer to myself?
i believe the answer is no. plain and simple. no.

in retrospect, i guess i've applied the essence of that quotation in my life...
seldom do i lose the wisdom to realise the difference... yet, i must admit that countless times, the lines blur and there's always a grey area...

what to do.. life's like that.
accept it.
i know i can look the world in its eye.